Review: I Wish I Could Remember You by L. J. Epps

I Wish I Could Remember You by L.J. Epps
Format: PDF, 270 pages
Published: March 26th 2016 by L. J. Epps
Rating: ★★

Emily wants romance in her life—the kind of romance that leads to a perfect marriage. She dreams of having a husband who loves her and treats her with respect, someone she can spend the rest of her life with. She meets—and marries—Steven Montgomery, hoping he will make all of those things come true.

Everything is wonderful, at first; until things start to slowly change. Steven begins to mentally, verbally, and physically abuse Emily. Through it all, Emily tries to be the best wife she can be.

Finally, after so much devastation, Emily leaves Steven, files for divorce, and moves on with her life. Her sister, Monica, introduces her to a wonderful man named Robert. Emily falls in love with him. He is kind, gentle and sweet—all things now missing from her marriage. She is happy, in love again, and well on her way to divorcing Steven.

But, Steven doesn’t want the divorce; and, since he is a savvy lawyer, he tries everything to prevent it. Although Emily still has residual feelings for Steven, she knows that it could never work between them. She wants to move on with the new love of her life, Robert.

After a horrific accident, Emily can no longer remember Robert and all the things he has meant to her, and she can no longer remember all the horrific things Steven has done to her.

Emily has two men professing their love for her. She is confused; she doesn’t know where she belongs or who she should be with. And, she has a hard time deciding who to choose. Emily is being pulled in several different directions by her loved ones. They all mean well, but only Emily knows how she truly feels. She has to decide, on her own, what to do.

All Emily wants is to start over, but that isn’t so easy, since everything in her world is broken, and she isn’t sure how to fix it. All Emily wants is to be happy, healthy, and whole again, but that may not be in the cards for her, either.

PLOT  ★★
This is the story of Emily Montgomery, a victim of abuse turned victim of amnesia. She has had issues with her husband Steven for awhile, and only recently has she began filing for a divorce. Meanwhile, she has been in a happy and healthy relationship with Robert, a man with whom she has fallen deeply in love. It has been difficult transforming her life and trying to cleanse herself of her past, but Emily is pulling through. Then on one unfortunate day, she is involved in a car accident and loses her memory.

The set up for this book has potential: woman develops amnesia and remembers the wrong lover (Remember Me? by Sophie Kinsella anyone)? However, the following details leading up to the end were boring and unmemorable.

Emily is stuck between deciding to stay with the husband she remembers to be good but is supposed to be bad, or going off with the stranger she doesn’t remember but who is supposed to be good. After a bunch of dramatic events, she makes her decision.

I was only able to keep reading because I wanted to find out what became of the characters. I did enjoy the last few ending events though, even if it was a bit rushed.

None of these characters acted like themselves. They were always a certain way with one character, then a different way with another. This is realistically a normal thing, like acting more casual with your friends than with your professor, but it was extremely difficult to outline character development because of this. As well, sometimes the characters act out-of-character, doing things that do not fit how they would act (or how I’ve noticed they act).

Emily is not a strong protagonist at all, and I’m not too fond of her. She is indecisive and unsure of herself. Yes, these are normal human traits, but I found her too whiny for my taste. I also don’t think she changed much throughout the story, which was frustrating because I wanted badly to root for her.

Steven is one crazy guy. His intentions throughout the book were unclear to me, and I genuinely could not tell if he was good or bad, until I reached nearly to the end of the story. This added a certain mysteriousness to his character which I enjoyed.

Monica, Emily’s sister, is the one character I didn’t hate reading. She is like a rock in the craziness of the lives of her friends and family. Although she was a secondary character, I liked her best.

I’m a bit neutral about the rest of the characters.

Overall, I think the character development needs more work. I didn’t find any drastic changes in the characters as the story went along, which was kind of depressing actually. I’d like to see the characters change with the plot.

I’m not too fond with how the story is written. It is blunt and patronizing. In explanation:

The sky was still dark, and it was pouring down rain. Not just little sprinkles but an all-out downpour.

If I am told that the sky is “pouring down rain,” I’m not going to assume it’s misting. That second sentence is a bit redundant, and this occurs many times throughout the story. It made for a not-so-great reading experience. Generally, the writing does not allow inferring, rather it shoves unnecessary and obvious information at the reader. Also, there were some grammar errors (eek!), which were a bit annoying to read.

One thing I do like is the portrayal of very realistic emotions. How Epps phrased how Emily was feeling and what she was going through kept me interested in the story.


I’m a bit disappointed with this book, to be honest. Perhaps I’m just being picky, (because I really did enjoy the story line) but I don’t recommend this book.

Disclaimer: I received a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review. This review is in collaboration with Books and the Bear.

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